For those of us who qualify as life's perennial 'fixers,' leaving something to just be - to not act toward black or white, toward yes or no, toward some fixed outcome - is not native.

Having discovered that in life's discomfort lies the greatest opportunity for growth, I've leaned into the wait. The forced, executed pause between the happening, and the response.

The considered removal of an option to act instantly creates a remarkable amount of unadulterated fragility. It is akin to holding back a wild animal. The impulse continues to tug, tries to pull forward, to alleviate the suspended pregnant pause. It is easier to arrive to a destination - any destination - and recalculate, than to wait at point A and not yet select a point B. I suspect, however, than in this waiting lies a great deal of wisdom.